Stairway to life… or hell

The start There I was, a healthy born baby. Crying in a hospital room in my mother's arm and beside her stood my father smiling. Little did I know about that smile. I wasn't the brightest kid growing up but that would mean the feeling of silky belt on the naked skin of your back …

Soul (A life force)

About to sound coo coo But please, do bear with me. It was about last week, I was sober, definitely clean and was relaxing about. My best friend and I, we went to a friend's house, nothing much to do. We played a couple of games and my friend's friend decided that they were going …

NDE (Near Death Experience)

This is about to get a little disgustingly graphical.   So as I said, well at least I think I said that I had been sober for 4 months, following my job I didn't take any sort of drugs. I got a little drunk one day and thought why not, so I took one and …

Twenty Nineteen

Twenty Eighteen in a nutshell.   It's been a while, well 2 years since I have last written. The reason would be is that I was back in my home, I don't have a high school degree nor a university's. So I had to find a job and grind myself as long as I could. …

Teardrop

The waterfalls I lay in my bed, thinking about life. My friend picks me up and we go to her university. Ugh Another shitty day and I'm already high. Why not up the dosage? We finish and I drop her to work and take another dose of my high. Feeling pretty jumpy. What the fuck …

Devastation

Follow up Yeah, I know I haven't written in a while. Of course I haven't, My girlfriend broke up with me. She gave up on us, so what do you think? Oh well. I had no reason to get up anymore, I looked like a homeless hobo staying on bed 24/7. Curtains closed, pills and …

Intertwined

Endearment We were both young and wild adoring each other for a while It'd last forever That we thought never Cycle of life begins and ends With memories we remain as friends. We were at each other's level of affection But neither one of us could get the satisfaction I gave it my all, tried …

Twenty Seventeen.

Catastrophic events Everyone dove into the year 2017 with hopes that it will be better than 2016. With smiles and laughter, new objectives and goals. New things to do, new people to know. I was one of those people. Well I hoped every year would be better than my last one. Turns out it doesn't …

Pills and blood

End of the road? Is this it? Is this what life is? Questioning my existence at the age of 13. Is this what kids do? Is everyone physically beaten everyday or is it just me? Another morning I wake up with bruises on my back and a stiff body. Ahh, prepare for another day  of …

Tears for my own.

Normal evening.. Or so I thought. I woke up around 6. Did my usual routine of going to the bathroom, wash my face, brush my teeth, go to the kitchen and find some food. Feeling refreshed as I hadn't slept well the other night. But something felt off. What was this feeling? What am I …

18th birthday

In the morning... I was awoken by chairs crashing onto my skin. Wait what just happened? Open eyes and there is my dad, standing and staring at me. His face.. it was completely red and suddenly the atmosphere turned gloomy. He said "stop skipping school, you are going there today". Hmm, another day of arabic language …